Your headstrong angel

I can feel you
even if i'm so far from you
I can feel what you have inside
I can feel that even across my skin
and i'm by your side
in spite of you
like a headstrong angel
as i promised you
some time ago

the last shriek

help me
give me your hand
i fell down
i can't get up alone

Used and misused (the way I feel)

caught
deceived
misused
then useless
cumbersome
thrown away
only rubbish
like home a landfill
sewer stink
take care
Stay away!

Dedicated to you...

Sunrise

SAVE ME - Queen

Between you and the sea

I'm no longer frightened of you
My whole life, you're
I live of the breaths
that you leave here
wich i consume while you're away
I can no longer divide myself
between you and the sea
I can no longer keep myself still to wait
I, that i would have lived with you
in your foreign city
alone, with the instinct of who knows
how to love
alone, but however with you
I can no longer divide myself
between you and the sea
i can no longer feel
myself tired of waiting
No, darling
No!
I can't go on!
Or you return
Or you stay there!
I don't live anymore,
i don't dream anymore
I'm afraid, help me!
Darling, i don't believe you anymore
everytime that you go away
you swear to me that it is the last time
I'm gonna tell you goodbye
At night I look in every star for
a reflection of you
but all this is not enough for me
now i grow up!
No, darling!
No!
I can't go on!
Or you return
Or you stay there!
I don't live anymore,
i don't dream anymore
I'm afraid, help me!
Darling, i don't believe you anymore
everytime that you go away
you swear to me that it is the last time
I'm gonna tell you goodbye
I can no longer divide myself
between you and the sea
I can no longer keep myself still to wait
I can no longer divide myself
between you and the sea.

My lost reason

- It will take a lot of time and i don't know if I will be able to do that.
- How much time?
- The time required to forget the only one reason to live that I had found after past pains and suffering.
- What reason?
- Him.

The eyes, a misleading mirror

Why did you raise my face softly with your hand and ask to me to look into your eyes when we were talking together?
Why?
I don't want to look anymore into the eyes of anybody from now on.
I always believed in what i could find looking in the eyes of people but i didn't ponder that there is someone who is able to hide his real soul also by the eyes.
I'm not able to do that unfortunately and this makes me too defenceless.
I'm not able to defend myself from who promised to take care of me looking into my eyes.
I don't want to give anymore myself to anybody completly.
I don't want to allow anymore to anybody to take away the smile from my face and to steal my heart.
I don't want to let to anyone to hurt me anymore.
I don't want to love anymore.
ANYBODY.

Our insane Inferno

"The inferno of living is not something that will be, if there is one, is what is already here, the inferno that we live in everyday, that we shape being together. There are two ways not to suffer. The first is easy to manage for many: accept the inferno and become a party to the point of view it does not anymore. The second is risky and demands constant attention and learning: to seek and be able to recognize who and what, in the midst of the inferno, is no inferno, and make it last, and give it space."
(from Italo Calvino - Le citta invisibili - Einaudi, 1972)

Learn!

You should have at least a little R E S P E C T in people who love you.
What is the meaning of respect? Treat others the way you want to be treated. Reward with heart and care someone who loves you and supported you a lot.
Learn also to be helped without fear when you're in troubles and your heart is full of sorrow. Because who accepts loving help from others is not a weak one, but a strong one that realised what is one of the sources of his power.
Learn it, because....

Still my hope

You, you that you're are different, at least you in the universe, you're a point that never turns around to me, a sun that shines only for me like a diamond in the middle of the heart.
you, you that you're are different, at least you in the universe, tell me that you'll be honest with me forever and that you'll really love me, more, more and more.

Selfishness can kill

I don't know, maybe it's funny or useful to erase smile from face of someone who loves you and switch off the light of her eyes . Maybe it's enjoyable or helpful to let her wait for something from you so long. Maybe you're doing that to have fun or to overcome a bad time. That's your strange and bad way to defeat troubles or concerns. So go ahead. Even if i think that peacefulness and fun reached making suffer someone else, especially someone who entrusted her heart to you without any defense, is a wrongful abuse and it's a pitfall also for yourself eventually.

Anger

Shoot!